Then I start to reconsider all the options I threw away in the begging and thinking maybe they're not so bad. But then again these options were the reason I started to look for an alternative path to begin with. Why can't things just be simple? Why does every major thing in my life have to be difficult?
And no, it's not worth it in the end. I usually give up before then because if it's not easy, then it's not meant to be, right? When it's meant to be, everything falls into place. When it's meant to be, then everything lines up, the stars, the people, the schedule, the money and you make it happen. Or am I naive? Too optimistic? Or just plain misguided on how to live a life? I mean, I'm no teenage here. I should have this shit figured out by now.
Linking to Paint Party Friday.
Self-study classes: Cotton Candy Girls & Crazy Hair Ladies