Tuesday, February 28, 2012


I don't think I've shown you this before. It's my art journal entry from last year. I was ready and things went wrong. And although I thought I was ready then I'm not now so I guess the universe had other plans for me. Still figuring out what that plan is though.

I think this was one of the things I wanted to include in my workshop that was supposed to happen last year and then it didn't.

I have a different concept now but I'm not gonna talk about it because it didn't go so well the last time I did. :)

Do you feel like you’re lost sometimes? Lost in your life and have no idea where you’re going?

I mean, I never was the kind of person that needed a plan or a goal but I always seemed to enjoy the journey. Right now, the journey is not happening either. It’s like I’m just standing there being lost. It’s a weird feeling.

And I have an ongoing struggle inside me never knowing when to persevere and when to quit. I have a tendency to quit because I believe if it’s supposed to be it will happen no matter what.

But now I don’t know if it’s not supposed to be or I’m not persistent enough. When is it ok to quit?

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  1. I'm not sure if any of my words will help. I think this journal entry is beautiful, peaceful and radiant....a perfect overflowing of the wonder and excitement that thoughts of the future....the anticipation of a family, can bring.
    Things do not always go as planned or expected....and it sounds like you have always understood this fact and went with the flow of where Life wanted to take you....but feeling stagnant is never fun. I understand that despair.
    I find that in these times....when there is no will or reason to fight ...I, instead, look not ahead and wait for something to happen, but look at right now.....and challenge myself to see what is going on right now, in this moment....and be open to the lesson. Sometimes, at least for me, it was learning that I didn't want to feel like that anymore. And, deciding that would give me the resolve to persevere a change.
    Hubby and I tried for 7 years to start a family with no results. We decided against fertility treatments.
    When I admitted that I could still be gloriously happy even without kids and knew that having my Husband all to myself was not a bad problem to have....I got pregnant...haha!
    Have you heard that quote? "Life is what happens to you while you're making plans for it".

    Take deep breaths....dig deep....make art....love with all your heart....smile at the wide open sky....and write a list of all that you are grateful for....
    I'm certain this is a huge, wonderful list that will give you hints into your dreams :)

    Biggest Hugs,

  2. It always ok to quit....BUT...some things just need keeping in a safe place for a while, until you find the tool to continue with it :D Maybe if you replaced the word "quit" with "pause" or imagine that a particular project is "minimised" rather than "closed" it won't feel like you've given up when your not sure. But if you KNOW you want to quit something just quit. Your the one living with the stress of doing something you don't enjoy :D XXX

  3. Hi Natasha, I felt very lost three years ago. I thought I had lost everything and I hit rock bottom. I have a mantra it's "Things never stay the same, things are always changing" sometimes you just have to wade through the crap and finally it will be ok, then it will be better. I try and see something positive each day...it might be a tiny violet flower pushing through the cracks in the path... someone smiling back at me... Sometimes you don't have to quit you just need to change direction...hugs to you... :)

  4. I love your art journal page Natasha... so very beautiful... I think, you get to a point where you just know when something is over... and it is time to let it go... and other times, there is still a spark, a knowing that something more is still to come... and even if you don't run with it straight away... there will come a time when it is the perfect time to continue...

    Jenny x

  5. Don't think of it as quitting--just think of it as leaving for a while and taking another path...and that doesn't necessarily mean art--it can be anything.
    This is what I do when things feel stagnant to me---it makes such a difference.
    Your art will always be there--because you're such a natural at it.

  6. Follow your heart Natasha. If you really want it then eventually you'll get there - life has a habit of throwing obstacles in our path but they are there to make us stronger and equip us with the skills we need. Listen to the whisperings and let them guide you. I am a firm believer in instinct. xx

  7. you are echoing a conversation i had recently with another artist. how did you get in my head?
    and in hers.

    it seems the three of us are reaching for that very close something.

    but don't know what it is and want to howl with frustration.

  8. Beautiful work Natasha
    hugs June x

  9. First of all, I love your art journal entry!! I truly love all your paintings!! I really do!
    My friend, never quit! I totally understand about feeling lost. Maybe you have to take another direction to get to the place you want to go, but never quit!! Some sayings for you ;o)
    "Sometimes, you just need to spread your wings and soar into that great unknown!"
    "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us."
    "To succeed, you need to find something to hold on to, something to motivate you, something to inspire you!"
    Big Hugs and trust in you!

  10. hello Natasha,
    you have so many wonderful messages here from blog friends. wisdom overflows and i hope it helps, it was lovely for me to read. and just feeling how much people care and we are all so similar. We have good times and we have times when we feel lost, it is all part of being human.

    at this time in life, i like learning from trees... roots planted in the earth for stability and arms dancing in the heavens... and so much more. i don't know if that helps.

    your art is so lovely~
    thank you for the message about google. i have one i will send you now.

    wishing you well and sending light~

  11. Natasha, this is a beautiful piece. I know exactly what you mean about feeling like you're stuck. I've never had a plan either, nothing concrete anyway. we dream of getting away drom the rat race and enjoying what the world has to offer but unfortunately it always come back to the reality of needing money in order to have freedom and so we plod on in the 9 to 5 work world watching days pass by. then i see something that reminds me we have our health and happiness with each other and really we can't ask for more than that (but we can still dream!)
    i think that if its for you, it won't go past you so keep on going and you'll get there if its meant to be.

  12. What ever you decide to do good luck with it I love this and I'm glad we finaly get to see it ;0)

  13. in those moments I do what felt fine for me... there are so quits anyway there are only several ways and I choose one of it...most of the time, when I am in such situations where don´t know what to do I look out for signs and there are always the right sign...AND imagine you standing on the earth above you infinity space, in front of you infinity space, behind you infinity space and below you , well there is a round planet on which you stand, but after it: infinity space... so you are lost anyway ;-) what I mean is, that your inner self is so connected to the "just be" that it is indifferent where you are, you are always safe and in the right place...just faith the moment, that it is the one you needed now :-) love and hugs to you


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