this is the right time,
you've paid your dues,
you're thinking the right thoughts,
you're doing the right things,
and this very moment, you are exactly where you're supposed to be...
poised for the happiest time of your life. ...
I love this quote. It reminds me to not be bitter, to not have any regrets and to stop feeling sorry for myself.
Some time ago when I was taking the Unravelling e-course with Susannah Conway I wrote a letter to my teenage self and to my old self. Have you ever done that?
Well yesterday I was "cleaning" my computer and came across these letters. I thought I might share with you some bits. :)
Dear old me!
I'm old and wrinkled with cats and dogs surrounding me. You always knew that was your future, didn't you?
Why don't you write to 30 something year old self and tell her to do a list of most outrageous things you want to do. Don't think about if it's possible or not or if you have other obligations and responsibilities. Start writing things down even little things like buying a blender for your raw vegan smoothies. Get the idea?
Wait I'll help you out:
*start seriously painting and selling your art, open that etsy shop put your paintings on e-bay and see what happens
*take those damn on-line classes even though you sometimes think you spend too much money, it's what you learn from them that counts and you'll spend the money anyway
*buy the blender any kind for starters if it's meant for you to be raw vegan, you'll get that Vitamix blender eventually
*be a damn good raw vegan and stick with it till you die of old age
*go to Gardaland (again)
*go to Australia (again) maybe even stay there for a while and see if you really want to live there
*finish that damn diploma you'll be so better off knowing there is nothing left to be pressured by, you'll just have to find some other shit to bother you, and don't worry, you'll find it
* call your girlfriends and go out with them, you're avoiding people way too much
*move already, seriously, you hate it where you live right now, start fresh why don't you
*buy environmentally friendly car
*go solar, you have no idea what I mean but one day when you're ready you'll get it
*start filming yourself making art and put it on YouTube
*do an on-line workshop yourself
*write an art book
*don't ever stop writing on your blog that's your saving thread and you know it
*oh yeah, why don't you get started on those kids, two really, a boy and a girl
*travel your ass off, you need to see more of the world, first stop New York and L.A.
What happened so far?
* I opened my Etsy shop and started selling my art.
* I took those on-line workshops
* I bought the blender and tryed to be raw vegan but failed.
* I finished my diploma (in English it's called the bachelor's degree or something like that)
* we're moving this year
* I bought a Flip camera I just need to start filming myself :)
* I'm sticking with this blog
* oh, yeah, and we're working on those kids :)))
* we're going on vacation in September but not NY nor L.A.
On the other note. :) My best friend from high school is having a baby. She is due in October and this painting is meant for her little boy. Probably Luke. They're still working on the name. :)